Conversations with myself – #3 Death

“I am ready to meet my Maker. Whether my Maker is prepared for the great ordeal of meeting me is another matter.” – Winston Churchill

Whoa, now there’s a dark subject!

I know, but don’t worry, I will try to shine some light on it.
As the quote would suggest, death is not something to fear or to avoid.

Why not?

For many times, I have seen it’s cloak, walk past by me while I was doing my own thing.
Saw him trying to take those away that were close to me.
Sometimes with success, and sometimes just to poke a little.
But those experiences have taught me a valuable thing!

And what might that be?

They taught me to look ahead.
To look beyond the the cloak and towards the face that it tries to hide.
I don’t want to be afraid of death.
If he comes for me, sure… I wouldn’t like it.
Heck… I wouldn’t even be ready for him.
But that’s the whole idea!

To not be ready for your death?

Yes!
Well… Not in the literal way… I mean… There are some things you should be ready for.
Mostly financial stuff and such.
But the idea of dying is something I would never be ready for!
I don’t want to be held back by the idea that something is bad for me and could kill me.
I don’t want to be afraid of this mystical monstrosity that is rumoured to take you away when you sleep.
I for one, would love to see his face.
Would love to greet him when my time comes.
Even if only to know what he would look like.

That sounds rather… Dark…
As if you have a deathwish or something, just to feed your curiosity…

No… Not like that.
Sure, it might sound like that, but it’s not how I mean it!

Then please, enlighten yourself!

As I seaid, the scenario above is for when my time has come.
Until that time, I want to enjoy life the way it comes to me.
I want to make the best out of it!
To enjoy it with all the wonderful people around me.
Both loved ones and the occasional ass to make fun of!
Eventually, I want to look a death, the same way I do to life.
I want to be able to go with a smile, just so I can have a laugh and go “Told you I could do it!” to the ones who would not believe me.

I still don’t get the bright part of this conversation.

Okay, let me try something else…
If you were to die tomorrow, what would your biggest regret be?

Right… I get it.
My biggest regret would be, not being able to do everything I wanted to do.
Not being able to finish my bucket list of activities.

Indeed.
And when you’re not busy thinking about all the dark powers that could hold you down.
The more time you have to enjoy even the little things in life.
Like a simple cup of tea with some extra sugar.
Or the sight of your friends being gassed by your cat, because the little devil is a walking methane bomb.

When you look at it like that… You might have a point.

Yes, I might.

So, now that you’ve convinced me.
Please tell me… Why did the younger you like to put small light bulbs into power outlets?

Hey… I never said I was the brightest one alive!